"So how is your second trimester so far?" Innocent question by someone I was making small talk with after telling them that I has just completed my twelfth week of this pregnancy. An innocent question that sent me to google search on my phone as I thought I had another two weeks before that happened. Sure enough, I have officially entered my second trimester almost completely unaware!
Soooo many different, wonderful and scary, emotions! Second trimester is beginning, that means I have completed 1/3rd of this pregnancy already, and the baby will be here in six months!! I'm so excited to have the baby here, becoming less terrified of the actual labor, and have to prepare myself for the big life changes that are coming our way... ready or not!
As excited as I am for our family to start growing, I have to admit that I have a grieving process to go through as well. I love the life that Shaun and I have, just the two of us. I cannot wait to see him hold our baby for the first time, or tell him to watch the coffee table corners when they start wrestling in the living room- but I will miss us being just us. I am so grateful that he feels the same way, because part of me feels so selfish admitting it. We (especially Shaun) is always working toward a goal of some kind, but I'm thankful that both of us have been taught, that although it's good to have hopes and work toward your goals, we need to make sure we enjoy each stage of life while it's here. There are a lot of things that will change- I just hope that our relationship grows stronger as we raise kids instead of drifting apart as it seems most couples do.
So what are some things that have happened since the last post? The nursery furniture is almost all the way stocked, I've dug out the things our mothers saved from Shaun and I as babies, and we had a third ultrasound. The baby did flips, responded to the doctors pokes and pushes against my stomach, and it even made a muscle for Shaun when the doctor was pointing out its little arms! We clearly saw the head, body, arms, legs, umbilical cord, and Shaun even got to see fingers!! The ultrasound to find out the sex is scheduled for Sept 13th (one more month!!) and we have nursery themes ready for either... just waiting to hear the exciting words and we will be purchasing paint in either turquoise & pink or shades of light blue and maybe some yellow? My morning sickness has faded, but isn't totally gone. Shaun has been wonderful through this, either taking on cooking himself, or happily eating leftovers, grilled cheese (my latest craving) and cold cereal on the days I just can't handle cooking. His encouraging words over how I've been making sure I eat have helped my attitude leaps and bounds, while at the same time, he will go out of his way to make sure I get the chocolate doughnut I just had to have. I couldn't ask for a better husband or best friend to go through this with.
