Found this in my drafts, never finished it, but for the sake of not having wasted time, I'm going to go ahead and publish it.
I am not miserable by any means, but very excited to see my little man's face for the first time. So when I say I am ready to have him here anytime starting next week when he will be officially "full term", I mean it- but I'm not complaining- I'm a wonderful mix of anxious/excited! I am a little uncomfortable, but that's to be expected. I felt the baby hiccup in a new way this week- I felt his diaphragm contract and his head react to the hiccup less than half a second later- one hiccup= two movements. It's so cool to experience his development this way! My body is telling me that the baby will be here soon, in just the past two days I have felt the beginning signs of the baby "dropping" and my hips and joints in general are tired feeling as they stretch and loosen so the baby can do his thing. I am fighting acquiring a "waddle" but when I'm tired and forget, it happens. I have put my 4 inch heels away with pride that I made it through my eighth month still able to wear them. I'm way tired and need to make sure I take breaks from doing anything during the day- something that will start on Sunday. The one thing I will say I'm not very fond of is the feeling that happens for several hours throughout the day of my belly feeling so tight and firm that if it grew any more the skin would rip- which of course I know isn't true and somehow there will still be more room.
God has been so good, His timing in when things happen to me has been as close to convenient as possible. The baby is due just after a raise Shaun will get which will replace my paycheck, allowing me to stay at home instead of sending Gabriel off to daycare. I am so grateful to both God and Shaun for giving me this gift in a generation where there is so much pressure financially and mentally to have both adults working outside of the home. My goal for January was to come very close to completely finishing five big weddings I'm working on for the May-June wedding season this year. I have been a little overwhelmed trying to make this happen- but with 11 days left in the month, I am excited to say that this goal has become a reality! It's a reality just as my body is telling me that I can't push myself as far or as long as I do anymore- perfect timing!
I am trying to take advantage of my motivation/nesting during the work day while Shaun isn't here so we can enjoy this last month of "freedom" together. Movie nights, teaching him piano, reading and sitting by the fire (because we keep our house frigid- completely my fault), playing with the dogs- none of these things will go away when the baby is born, but there will be another human to take up our attention who is 100% dependant on us. I'm soaking up the last moments of us being just us until we become empty nesters. I have to admit that I'm looking forward more to date nights being something more special. Now every night is a date night that we don't have homework or real work to do in the evening, but soon it's going to be family night every night, making going out just the two of us that much more meaningful.
I can hardly wait to hold my son for the first time.
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